Heart feeling ~

    Hello people , here is a girl had a full day of laughing actually is very weakkkkkk , yes that's me ! Everyday I've been crazy with mah friends but finally I'll crying . Until when ? 2 years ? OMG ~ Please girl , try to be strong as him ..
   Dear sweetheart , with my every breath that I take .. With my every heartbeat .. I am always THINKING of you Amir :'( In my wake , breezing in my dream .. In my sleep and imagination .. Again , I'm always THINKING of you sayang ! :'( It's so obvious that I NEEDED LOVE from you my dear ! Only then I will feel ALIVE ~ Mohd Amir Bin Abd Rahim , I REALLY DO LOVE YOU BECAUSE YOU GIVING MEANING TO MY LIFE  ! I will continue to love you a moment more after ever after ! In the moments of fear with all the struggles in life I'M GRATEFUL because you are here sayang :') Let it be that I lost all my worldly possessions AS LONG AS YOU STILL HERE . 
    I love you enough to fight for you , compromise for you and sacrifice myself if need to be . Enough to miss you incredibly when we're apart , no matter what length of time , It's for and regardless of the distance . Enough to be in our relationship , to stand by it through the worse of time , to faith in our strength as couple and never give up on us . Enough to spend the rest of my life with you , be there when you need me or want me and never ever to leave you or life without you ..
    I LOVE YOU DAMN REALLY MUCH ! PLEASE BE IN MY HEART FOREVER MOHD AMIR BIN ABD RAHIM AS YOUR ALL PROMISES ! I'm hope sayang , really really hope . I know you will , Insyaallah . I know that I'm not good perfect enough to you but I'm try to be the good one and only for you . Haihhhhhhhhh , my heart is so weakkkkk . As my sister said , I should got an award cause every night I'll crying before sleep ~ See , how weak I am .
   Ya Allah :'( IMISSYOUSAYANGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ! I hope you missing me too ~ Thank you so much cause give me a second chance to know you and stolen your heart . And thank you so much cause accept me as who I am . I'm VERY FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU ! I REALLY LOVING YOU AMIR ! Hurhhhh ~

Lots of dreamingggggggggg ~

    Hello , people . I'm an ordinary teenagers and live my own life . No dramas in my life and don't being hypocrite with me , please .  Thank you. Uggghhhh , I miss my sweetheart actually ! Yes , Mohd Amir Bin Abd Rahim , he's my boy ! Sayang , I'm always missing you my dear . I'm always thinking about you and I'm always dreaming about our life ! Here my dreaming :

•  You would scream " ILOVEYOUBABYYYYY ! " down the halls and not caring who heard you .
• You'd go on a walk with me in 60 degree weather , hot cocoa in one hand and my hand in yours other .
• You'd sing out loud to any song even if I call you retarted . 
• You let's me sing out loud and wont call me weird .
• You'll sit outside with me , on my front step because there's nothing to do and wont say you're bored once .
• You'll let me look like a crap wearing a big t-shirt and shorts and still calls me beautiful .
• You'd write me thousands of notes everyday .
• You'd come to my house at nine in the morning to wake me up on the weekends .
• You ' ll take me to the park and push me on the swings .
• You won't be shy around my family but acts like you're part of it .
• You'll argue with my friends that you loves me more .
• You'll keep every single promise you makes .
• You'd run up and hug me whenever you sees me .
• You wont be scared to dance in front of me or act retarted .
• You'll spend my birthday with me and my family .
• You'd rent all the chick flicks you knows and wacth them with me when I'm inside sick .
• You'll remember our anniversaries before I do .
• You'll call me at night right before I go to the bed just so you knows you're the last voice I hear .
• You'd push my hair away when it's in my face .
• You'll give me sweatshirt even if you're freezing and wont make me feel guilty about it .
• You'd never get jealous because you already know I LOVE YOU more than anything and when you're say FOREVER , you means it no matter what .
• And you be a boy who wont ask me whats wrong when I look sad , you'll just kiss me on the forehead .

  

   Yeahhhhhh , I'm dreaming too much about us . More , more , more and more about us that I've dreaming actually ! My dreaming are too annoying until I think negative about you , sometimes . Sorry dear , I'm just worried that she'll back in your life ~ I hope you'll be the last for me and we can stay together forever .. Yes , I love you ! Thankfuller to Allah cause let you stolen my heart ♥ I just want you to be my one forever ! Nothing as sweet as you honey .. :'( You're my one ! Nobody can replace you in my life :'( ILOVEYOU ! I wish my dream became reality ♥ " I want to have an incredible life with you " Me too sayang ! Now , I know what is love babehhh . Only you in my heart forever , Insyaallah . I'm very hope that I'm the only and the one yours  forever and you never and ever leave me alone as your promises . I need you my life ! You knows who is Fatin Nabilah , you knows my heart and you knows everything about me . Only you understand me honey ! I'm really hope that I'll stay forever with you until Jannah .You the one that I only haveeeee ♥

Crazy , Isn't it ?

     Everyday you meet new people, new faces and new personalities. You see people you despise and people whom you love. We meet strangers in the oddest ways sometimes and eventually they become your friend. Some even best friends. The only problem is they have flaws. Just like You and Myself . Perhaps they’re stressed out from their job, or school work or anything really. You have to understand that sometimes you can’t make someone your complete world .

    Making someone your everything is terrible in a good way. It’s a great thing because then you can rely on them for anything, they’re the people that know you and how your mind and body work. They’re the people that will be there for you to help give you a boost when you really need it. They can make you feel things you haven’t ever felt before or things you haven’t felt in a long time. Everything to make your world continue on and be happy about.

     A problem with making someone your complete world is you lose your friends, and your own self. You start thinking about your actions and how it would affect them. Hesitating on making a decision because you fear the outcomes. Also, when they leave you or you leave them what are you left with? Broken promises and past memories. Pain and disgrace at yourself. It leaves you helpless. Like you can’t continue on without them. And that is where friends come in.

    Surrond yourself with positive thoughts and positive people. Not drugs or alcohol. Numbing your pain eventually only makes it worse in the end; I know for a fact. I’ve done it. Others have. It’s a coping method to ease it all.

    Decide next time before making someone your everything if it’s worth it in the end whenever it comes. If they leave how helpless will you feel? Would you think it was a mistake doing it and letting them in on a piece of your heart and soul.

Crazy isn’t it, how people have such big impacts on your life ?